What a whirlwind of a year it has been. I can’t believe it’s already New Years Eve (here in Australia!) Time has flown, yet so much has happened since my last update to now, that I thought it was most certainly time for a new one. So make yourself a cup of tea, sit down, get comfy and let’s catch up!
What’s been happening with life
Firstly, so sorry I haven’t posted in about three months! I am not pleased with myself for leaving it that long, so next year I’ll be more consistent, I promise. There is a reason for my absence though, and that is in October this year, I began weekly vlogging for my Youtube channel. I have always enjoyed filming videos and have done it for many years now. I just never stuck to any form of consistency, including my content. In the past I have done various videos involving topics I love such as makeup, hauls, the odd vlog here and there etc. Some which have been taken down because they were so out of date, or for personal reasons. Then, Youtube became harder as Felix came along. I found myself a bit lost to be honest. I was desperate to film videos, yet I was always so tired, couldn’t find the time, or had no clue what I should even film. This made me feel quite disappointed in myself, as my Youtube channel (and blog) is something I’ve always been passionate about. So I then sat down and had a big think about what I wanted, and whether it was even worth continuing making videos, or should I just stick to the blog. Not going to lie, I came pretty close to just deleting my channel. But part of me just wasn’t ready to give up yet. So, I figured if I had some sort of consistent theme going on, I would then get into routine, and I would find motivation to upload videos with content that wasn’t all over the place. So, I decided to try my hand at weekly mummy vlogging. I have been watching family vloggers for a very long time and have always enjoyed them, and wanted to try it myself one day but didn’t think it was possible to commit to something like that, at least not while Felix is quite young. But something inside me decided now is the right time to give it a go, so I went out and got myself a new vlogging camera and a whole new chapter began. I have since then uploaded 9 consistent weekly vlogs which I am so proud of. Has it been hard? Of course! Being a mum who isn’t on social media platforms would be hard enough let alone become a weekly vlogger AND blogger on top of that! But I have been enjoying it so much that I couldn’t think of anything I would want to do more, so I find the time to make it work! Sometimes when I edit my videos, I get so excited or even emotional when I play them back before uploading them, therefore I know this is what I was meant to do. If you would like to follow our family journey and watch Felix grow up, you’ll find my most recent vlogs on my blog main page somewhere, or alternatively, click here: My Youtube Channel I put my heart and soul into my weekly vlogs so it would mean the absolute world if you checked them out and subscribed. I always upload a weekly vlog every Monday afternoon, and occasionally will film sit down videos here and there, because I still really enjoy filming those when I get the time too! if you have any requests for a video you would like to see me film other than the weekly vlogs, please let me know in the comments!
In the first week of December, we took Felix to his very first concert, THE WIGGLES! My goodness, this was a day I’ll never forget! When they came out in their big red car I couldn’t contain my excitement (Yeah I know, I’m 30…what of it?) But when you have been watching these colourful icons on TV with your son for that long, it’s pretty surreal to be in the same room as them! The show was incredible and it appeared that Felix enjoyed every moment!
We also had a couple of special things to celebrate this month. Felix experienced his very first Christmas! This was a very busy time for the three of us, as we obviously had a lot of family to see = lots of travel. We spent Christmas eve with my side which was absolutely wonderful. I am quite close with my family so it was perfect to spend Felix’s first Christmas snuggled in pyjamas at my parents house, watching the annual Carols By Candelight on the TV, while snacking on mums famous cherry balls and lavender shortbread.
We then went to Nick’s family for Christmas day after breakfast. Not going to lie, I was really upset about having to go. I didn’t want to leave my family so soon, and I also didn’t want Felix to feel overwhelmed by too much travel in just a couple of short days. I did however enjoy myself in the end, and whilst it wasn’t a traditional Christmas for me, it was important for Felix to be able to spend time with both sides of his family.
A few days after Christmas was Felix’s birthday! As it fell on a Friday, Nick and I had planned for a long time that his party was going to be on the Sunday instead. We spent Friday and Saturday getting ready, making food, cleaning up our yard and making decorations. Once Sunday arrived, we were blessed with a beautiful sunny day as well as the lovely company of some of our family and friends. We had a gorgeous garden party with lots of yummy food, a Giggle and Hoot birthday cake for Felix, and a little cheeky bubbly for my girls. Felix had a ball playing on his new swing from my parents, walking around exploring the garden, trying his amazing cake and getting blue icing everywhere! I’ve got some lovely photos on my Instagram of his recent party and I also vlogged it too, which will be up on my channel this week. In the meantime, why don’t you check out Felix’s first Christmas vlog! BABY’S FIRST CHRISTMAS!
My goals for 2019
2018 this year for me was certainly met with many ups as well as downs. I had Felix at the very end of 2017 so obviously most of my year has been spent getting to know my son, and getting used to this new life of being a mum. I have been so exhausted both physically and mentally, leaving me with barely any time to accomplish anything else I want other than learning how to parent. I certainly don’t regret any moment of it, yet I am excited for next year because now Felix has passed the milestone of 1, things will hopefully start to become easier and I can begin to do more things for myself and set new goals.
My first one is obviously continue to be consistent with my weekly vlogging, but not be so hard on myself each time I feel that my content isn’t ‘exciting enough’ or put myself down if I think I look crap without makeup on. I have been slowly learning how to become more comfortable and show the true me on camera, but to be honest at times it can be quite daunting. I hope to develop more confidence in this area, learn not to care too much and continue having that positive ‘can do’ mindset over any negative thoughts.
My next goal is also Youtube related, and that is to reach 1000 subscribers by my birthday. I’m almost at 600 currently so it could take a while, but with my constant determination and efforts I put into these weekly vlogs, I feel it is definitely possible. It’s all about positive thinking. I’ve spent far too long in my life just assuming things I want to achieve won’t ever become a reality because I would just think “as if that could ever happen to me.” I’m now training myself to instead think, “Why not me?”
My third goal is to really knuckle down and save as much money as I can, so Nick and I can move out of the house we are currently in. Living in his old family home while they have all moved on in life has never felt like a true home to me, and I don’t think it ever will. Nick knows I have never been happy here, and it’s hard because for him it’s easy. He grew up here. He has memories. Yes we have it easier than some other people, but in a lot of other aspects we do not. I’m not going to get into it because I don’t feel I should really be venting about my living situation because of course I am still grateful, and I still want to be respectful. However, I have always been very independent, I have lived on my own many times in the past before including when I lived in Melbourne (oh how I miss it.) Living here makes me feel like a child, and I shouldn’t have to feel that way especially when I have one of my own. Therefore I am considering going back to work at some point next year so we can save faster, then hopefully we can move out before Christmas. Obviously Nick and I will have to sit down and come to some kind of arrangement with Felix, because I’m not ready for him to go into childcare just yet.
I also want to be a less stressed and more happy, positive person next year. Somebody who continuously believes in themselves, and strives for greatness over getting clouded in doubt. I want to always surround myself around positive people. People who get me. I want to stay away from toxicity, and anybody who’s energy makes me feel like crap. I want Felix to grow up with a happy mum. A mum who smiles and isn’t on edge all the time. A mum he can believe in. I want to continue doing what I love to do which is my videos and blog, and always feel inspired. I know it sounds cliché, but I have this feeling 2019 really is going to be my year. I guess we will soon find out!
That’s all for today’s post, but I’ll chat to you all in the new year! Thank you for stopping by!